another help thread
Since CP seems to be a helpful community...
To get to the point, pretty much my life sucks. I have not been able to fit in anywhere since grade 6, and I'm now in 2nd year university, and pretty much all my friends are "hi, how are you doing?" and nothing more...
I live at residences, and no matter how I try to fit in, or just have a couple friends it never happens.
I eat at the cafeteria alone most of the time, attend classes, talk to some people, once class is over I'm back to my own.
I'm never invited anywhere (since grade 7) and every weekend so far this year has been the same, alone in my dorm room.
I'm not into mass drinking, which is the norm around here, but I have never been invited anywhere and unable to find a group to talk to/hang out with.
Over the past couple of months, it just feels like my life sucks a lot. I have nothing to look forward to... Every day is the same, attend class, study, eat, do my own things (sit around and do nothing, no motivation to do anything) When I graduate? Earn money, live on my own?
These months have taken a toll on me emotionally, considering it’s now the 8th year in a row in which I am really never invited anywhere, or have people to talk to. I have also taken anger on my body a bit and its annoying sitting around, doing nothing because I don’t feel like studying all day, and have no motivation to do anything else (occasional game, but that’s been stopping).
I have previously played many cpu games, and I watch lots of TV, main reason is that it keeps me away from thinking, and keeps my mind busy. But now there's no TV, and go figure, cpu games are losing their effectiveness.
I just want to ask CP on ways to help me improve my situation (in terms of being able to fit in, more friends, etc...). Or at least try changing a negative into something positive, or something. Is hard writing this, and multiple times have not even though I have thought of it. I don’t really know what else to say.
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