[Save Us Sutter]

Thank you everyone for your replies.

From what she tells me in those rare moments where she is being honest with herself she really does want help. She is exhausted, ashamed and depressed and she knows this is being caused by her drug use.

Now I realize she might just be saying that but the times it has come out was not because anyone was hounding her. Sometimes she just starts to cry for no reason and that's when the truth comes out.

And no, I am not doing this for myself. If I was worried about what was good for me, I would pack my bags and move back to Halifax and be done with it. But I love her and I cannot turn my back on her as much as I feel like I should sometimes.

I have had my own problems in the past and if there's one thing I have learned is that no one is going to change unless they really want to. I truly believe that she does want to, she just doesn't know where to start. I feel like if I can get her started then she will do what it takes to get better. Sometimes all it takes it a push in the right direction.

Again, thank you everyone. I didn't know about 211. Will be trying that in the AM.

EDIT: As far as I can tell she hasn't reached the point of contemplating suicide yet. She has never said or done anything that would indicate that and I am fairly well educated in noticing the signs as I have worked in several group homes in Halifax and now in Calgary. She is definately headed down that path but hopefully can get treatment before it reaches that point.

Also just wanted to add that I do have a degree in Psychology and have taken several courses in Drugs and Addiction. Just pointing that out so I don't come off like a naive kid trying to get his girlfriend back. Her problem transcends any previous relationship her and I had and this is a case of trying to save her life, not make her come back to me.

thanks again